It's Not You…It's Me.

I need to take a break from Fierce Peace for a while. I’m feeling overwhelmed and understood. Can a person be overstood? Because I might be that too. At the beginning of this blog relationship, I found great freedom in this new way of communicating. But I have entered a new phase of life and I only know that the freedom I once sought is calling to me again. And this time the wind is blowing in a new direction. So, in the interest of self-preservation AND protection of those I love, I am going to disappear for a while. I honestly don’t know when or if I’ll be back. Maybe in the next phase. But the river phase ended in the ocean and I drank of it deeply. Now I’m in the blowing phase. And the blowing phase might just blow this blog off the face of the internet entirely in about a week or so. Or I might be back later when my phase is over. Who knows? In the meantime, I’ll say goodbye just in time for my husband to get his blog up and running once again. I know. We have issues. Multiplied. Funny that my name is Fierce Peace. Peace always seems so elusive. Like I’m desperately grasping at something that’s always out of reach. Whimpering, staggering and falling. Not very fierce-sounding, I know. I’d rather be a warrior, on a mighty stallion, galloping with my long hair flying behind me and my many-layered satin dress whipping in the wind. But I’m really not. I’m just here, in all my ordinariness, looking for truth and beauty and willing it to wash over me. In the washing, I feel God’s love. In the event of a flood, I may understand more fully His peace.

The only thing I’m not sure about is how I’m going to stay in touch with you that I love that live far away. I appreciate each of your blogs. They’re like lifelines to me and just seeing pictures means so much. If you join Flickr and add me as a contact, you can keep seeing pictures of our family too.

See you soon.


P.S. I know I promised to put more pictures up from our trip to Galveston. You can see them all here on my Flickr page, if you’re interested.

  1. #1 by maxskybarger on June 22, 2008 - 6:07 pm

    Well then I am glad I live close to you.


  2. #2 by Jackie on June 23, 2008 - 2:41 pm

    Facebook instead!!!!!


  3. #3 by Bean on June 23, 2008 - 2:55 pm

    This is truly sad. We have found that the only way to know how life is going for the Linebargers is through your blogs. After Chris shut his down…we lost an inside look into a brilliant soul of emotion…but at least we had one Linebarger that wasn’t shutting down. Not so anymore. Please keep in touch, even if it does mean doing it the old fashion way. Send a letter. Send a phone call. Send a skype. Send an e-mail now and then. The Beans (yes all six of us) will be blessed by the contact.


  4. #4 by Mom on June 23, 2008 - 9:40 pm

    I understand, I really do. I mean I really really do understand. But I feel sorry for us all. Your blog binds us together. Does this change have anything to do with Midnight Shymalan’s Happening? I think so.


  5. #5 by kirsty on June 24, 2008 - 7:09 am

    oh man, what will I do now??


  6. #6 by Karen Hodge on June 25, 2008 - 9:55 am

    I’m gonna miss you . . .


  7. #7 by Leslie on June 25, 2008 - 10:55 am

    You know, I’m very sad too. I’ve been crying about it even. But I think it’s something I really need to do. Maybe after a break, I’ll come back refreshed like my husband. (His new blog is up and running, by the way: So at least half of the Linebargers will always be available online! Isn’t that the goal?


  8. #8 by Bean on June 25, 2008 - 12:46 pm

    The goal is soul, like a mole, elevation. Your husbands blog is a grand re-entry into the world of WOW. I love you guys to bits.


  9. #9 by marce on June 27, 2008 - 8:31 pm

    So long, sissy-in-lissy.


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