This Ember Day

IMG_4162Chris is being ordained as a deacon at our church tonight. This makes all my senses on heightened alert. It may also be the sleep deprivation that has plagued us both for the last couple months. But I don’t think so. These last couple months have been hard. And when I say hard, I can only leave it at that. There are no words to describe the hardness. But it’s the hardest hardness I’ve ever known. Between his job, my job, three girls with very busy lives and multi-faceted needs, school, homework, church, driving all over kingdom come and beyond, not to mention all my mumble-jumbled emotions… 

It’s been hard.

 But I am so proud of him and how he’s persevered through the hardness and how he loves God and people truly and deeply and how he’s gently led our family through these hard times.

It’s kind of weird to be excited about something that in reality will only make things harder, but I think I am actually a little excited today! I don’t have any delusions about things getting any easier now. But it feels like we’re getting somewhere. And it feels like I’m slowly getting used to the hardness. I don’t know if I’ll ever have skin as thick as leather. But it might be a little more like paper that can go in a printer now as opposed to the tissue paper that it was, crumbling easily and breaking at the slightest puncture. Maybe it’s good that my heart is soft and mushy anyway. May the hardness never reach it.

I love you, Honey. I am so thankful that God has given you to be my husband for these past almost-twenty years. And I am thankful that you are now being given to the ministry of his Church. This life is good and I am thankful.

ALMIGHTY God, the giver of all good gifts, who of thy divine providence hast appointed divers Orders in thy Church; Give thy grace, we humbly beseech thee, to all those who are to be called to any office and administration in the same; and so replenish them with the truth of thy doctrine, and endue them with innocency of life, that they may faithfully serve before thee, to the glory of thy great Name, and the benefit of thy holy Church; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

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  1. #1 by Carlee on December 14, 2011 - 3:15 pm

    I hope you have a wonderful night of celebration with your family. Contatulations to you and Chris!

  2. #2 by Leslie on December 14, 2011 - 10:42 pm

    Thank you, Carlee. It was a beautiful service.

  3. #3 by Mom on December 15, 2011 - 9:44 am

    Beautiful indeed! Above and beyond what I would ask for in a celebration of becoming a deacon after the manner of our Deacon, Jesus Christ the servant!

    Leslie, I forced my expensive printer, against all good instructions for said printer, to accept 90lb paper pages (basically cardboard) and print beautiful things on them for years! It can be done.

  4. #4 by Leslie on December 15, 2011 - 10:44 am

    Ha! Such encouragement. Thanks for that. I hope beautiful things get printed on me too.

  5. #5 by Crystal Autumn on December 15, 2011 - 6:34 pm

    I think beautiful things have been printed on you already. And they continue to be printed on you by those crazy busy beautiful girls.

  6. #6 by Leslie on December 16, 2011 - 9:59 am

    Aw, Crystal. What a nice thing to say. Thank you.

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